Wednesday, December 21, 2005

The Seasons are Changin

The Fall of Contentment is officially over today... the first day of winter.

The Fall has definitely done for me just what I expected. After 2 years of searching and searching and searching, I've finally found a job that I can actually call my "career"...and even my "vocation". I love the SLC more than I knew I could like I job. Everything that I do there is stuff that God built me to do. And on top of all that, my coworkers are the most fun and crazy people that I know. They are just as weird as I am (though most of them have not yet discovered that I am THAT weird.) I am content in my job. And Jesus lives right down the hallway. I get to go to Mass every single day. And my boss is a very holy priest who just fills me with joy. What a wonderful wonderful wonderful Fall of Contentment.

I hope you have found some contentment as well. Feel free to post your fall experience.

And now for the new season:

This one has been brewing for a few months. In the midst of my contentment, I've had a bit of a sense of "impending doom." I just feel that in my whole "life's a rollercoaster" philosophy that things don't generally STAY good for long periods of time. And in the last month or so I've noticed a shift in some places in my life... and in the lives of the people around me. The shift seems to bring things like sadness, confusion, searching, frustration or anger. For awhile I had some pretty awful ideas about what to theme the winter. But then it hit me...even in our trials, God is with us. His ARE the footprints in the sand.

So I've decided that this season will be: The Winter of Trust

Even though the winter may bring some things that just don't make us happy and we may get sad, worried, angry or scared... we don't need to fret, my beautiful friends.

Put your Trust in God. Know that all of these things you face will bring you somewhere greater eventually. Let go and Let God work.

In 4 days we will celebrate His incarnation. God made flesh. God be with us in our trials and help us open our eyes and hearts to Your grace at all times.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

We've gone too far.

This has been cleared by legal:

Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit my best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low stress, non-addictive, gender neutral, celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced, within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasions and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all, and a fiscallysuccessful, personally fulfilling, and medically uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally accepted calendar year 2006, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great, (not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country or is the only "AMERICA" in the western hemisphere), and without regard to the race, creed,color, age, physical ability, religious faith, choice of computer platform, or sexual preference of the wishee.

I just want to wish everyone a Blessed Advent and Christmas... but if I do it publicly... I might be "politically incorrect." What's up with Holiday Trees anyways??? GRRR.

Thursday, December 08, 2005


Have you ever stopped to think about this "holiday season"?? It's supposed to be the season to be jolly. It's SUPPOSED to be the season of laughter and cheer.

I find it to be sort of grumbly and hectic.

I think it's kinda dumb that we all stress out over what present to buy whom... and who we should get presents for... and who is going to give us a present... and how will we pay them back... and what fun gag gift can i buy this year... etc. etc. etc.

I'm sorta in a BAH HUMBUG kinda mood this year when it comes to Christmas. It sorta pisses me off that we all go through this major stress out mode to give stupid items to people who don't really need said items and who will only maybe appreciate them anyways... because one has to be a mindreader to buy the perfect gift.

I say that it's all dumb. What we SHOULD be doing is using all of that money and all of that effort to give to people who need it. There are people without homes, without food, without coats, without ANYTHING right now. But no... we're giving xboxes and ipods and new leather jackets and fancy perfume to our loved ones to show how much we care.

It's kinda dumb.

I like Christmas because of the fun it brings. I like the parties and get togethers and spending time with friends. I like the hugs and the smiles and the true warmth that this season is supposed to have.

Let's celebrate ChristMass... not Materialismas.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Oh.. How Times are a Changin.

Sometimes when I've got a few extra minutes or when I have my laptop on late and night and sleep has not come yet... I look back at older posts on Delightful Delirium and I wonder...

I wonder how I could have changed so much in so short of a time. I've had this little piece of the web for nearly 2 and half years now... and it's quite amazing where my posts have been over that time span.

The other night I ran across a post from November of last year. I have new insight into this particular post now... so I'm gonna write on that one. If you need a reference point see That's Amore.

->I basically talk about how I don't think people rally ever stop loving someone to
->whom they've said "I love you." I say that although I'm not in love with the two
->guys that I once said that to... I do still love each of them in a way. And I
->wondered if that would ever change.

The answer is YES. Astoundingly, until I met Andrew, I didn't know that my brain was capable of not thinking about men 24/7. I mean... you guys remember back in the day when I had 6 or 7 crushes at one time. My brain was constantly thinking about who was nice and who was sweet and who I wanted to date and who I wanted to kiss. I was CONSTANTLY wondering where and who my next boyfriend was and would be. And even more than that... I still thought about past relationships I had had... I thought about how I had screwed up or how he had screwed up. I thought about what in those guys I did and didn't want in a future husband. And I think I wrote "That's Amore" because I thought I still had some weird sense of love for these guys beyond what I feel for just friends and family.

But I was wrong. Since I have discovered what real love... unconditional love... marital (almost) love is like, I don't think about any of those things anymore. So the answer is: you do fall out of love and eventually STOP loving those who you once loved. But I think it doesn't always happen until God shows you what REAL love is.